my feelings..

An idiot brain is what I always have
Since then, you’re the one that I love
You, all alone in my heart,
who have eyes for someone, that’s really hurt

you don’t even know how I feel probably
your day will surely not include me
Because there are still someone else
that you want to be with you memories.

I am the only one who can love you this way
to be with you is what I always pray
It’s only me, the one who is always watching you
and the one who is silently crying because of you

watching those smile on your lips
for me, it’s a kind of my happiness
even though to the very end
you can never understand my heart, you can’t.

suddenly i look at him, and he’s staring at her
i get inlove through his smile, those smile made by that girl
i feel so sad everytime that he’s in tears and not fine
and those teardrops is for her and still not mine

i wish i am her so i can give him a cure
to mend his burdens and my love will be so pure
but I’m not her, because I am Jealous and lost
and she’s the only girl whome he loved the most

even for a second, can i own your smile and a drop of tear?
those sweetest thoughts, in dreams only i can hear
but i want you! i need you! not only in dreams but in here
here in reality that only i can hear and own is fear

bakit nga ba hanggang ngayo’y ikaw parin
ang pangalan mo sa isip ko ay may diin
ang puso kong ito’y sadya ngang makulit
isipin ka’t mahalin ka’y sya parin ang pilit

sa aking paggising, ikaw ang pinapangarap
hanggang sa panaginip ay ikaw ang hanap-hanap
madalas na ngang sa sarili ko’y naaawa
sabihing kalimutan ka’y di ko nagagawa

hanggang ngayo’y di matanggap ang lahat ng sakit
ang mga dating tamis ay ngayo’y kay pait
kase minahal kita ng lubos-lubos
kaya ngayon pagmamahal sa sarili ko’y naubos.

hanggang ngayon, mahal parin kita
nakapaikot parin ang mundo ko sayo sinta
puso ko’y tila sasabog at nagwawala
sa t’wing iniisip kong ako sayo’y wala na